You were such a shock, such a surprise. For a moment, all I could think about were the bad things. The long sleepless nights, the pain and discomfort, being a grandmother by the time you graduate high school and 18 more years of a life not my own. I panicked. I could not imagine going through it all again at my age.
Then yesterday happened. The moment I saw the blood, I knew. I knew that I was not afraid of you, that I wanted you with all my heart. I was so afraid of losing you, I was terrified. You are loved, you are so incredibly loved. I adore you already and my heart is so full of eagerness to hold you and welcome you to our family. You are a wonderfully bright star that has shot into my life, my little Sunshine. Please don't take my Sunshine away.
