It's been a couple of years since I have posted anything on my blog. I haven't talked a lot on here sine the ex and I first split up. In the beginning, he used everything I wrote about against me, so I just stopped writing. Time heals, or so I am told, and maybe now things have moved on enough that he no longer cares what I write about.
So, catching up. Past few months have been hell. After the flood, it seemed like everything just started piling on. Chief, my sweet boy, was poisoned, and soon after my Gunther got sick and I feared the same, so I took him into the vet to find out he had pneumonia. A couple thousand dollars later, he is fine, save for the spots he still has. Hereditary mange of some sort. I have to try and give him baths that he hates, and he is bigger than Goose now.
I got a roommate to help cut expenses, but I think he costs more than it's worth, considering he doesn't pay. Lost 2 of my daycare kids because their dad lost his job, and one of the moms was evicted because of a guy taking advantage of her and she hasn't been able to pay me for 5 weeks now. Yeah. It never rains. It also floods!
I finally got all of the flood mess cleaned up here this last weekend, and I am working on getting my whole house set to rights, but it's a huge process. There comes a point, when everything is going so badly, that you lose your will to keep trying. Trying to kick myself into action and get things to rights again.
Also, fairly recently I have started trying to date again. I almost think I shouldn't. I am 35 and fairly set in my ways, on top of being hard-headed and stubborn. Having someone else poke in and try and impose their schedule/routines on mine is kind of irritating. With the temper I have, it's just not a good thing. I have to really find someone I like A LOT in order for them not to annoy the piss out of me. Granted, I have a small temper....
Moving on to more fun things. Monster is doing well in football, he is really blossoming this year! Brynn is finding her little preteen Jr high niche in school, loving basketball and choir and all that. I quit WoW and all online gaming for a while, after the flood. I was removed from my raiding guild for missing a couple of raids and it depressed me to no end considering what I had put into the guild and that I had missed them because of tornadoes and flooding. You would have thought there would have been an ounce of compassion or understanding there, but that's what happens when you deal with the Internet. Nameless, faceless people who will happily use you and have no problems casting you aside when you cease to be useful, even for a moment. Just here recently, within the past few days, I started playing again. Almost forgot how relaxing it was to be able to lose yourself for a while.
Holiday season is coming up... Been thinking about taking a new approach this year.
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